A cause des garcons.

Talk about inconsistent.

I decided something close to a few weeks ago that life is much better when I don't take myself so seriously & feel the need to comment on it all the time.

I also have an internet dependency...surprise, surprise.

And so, I'm trying with limited success to...get over that. You know, 2009, all that.

Limited success.

Very excited that my college career is about to end. Need a change of scene.

Currently, busy pretending to finish all of my applications for Law/Grad schools. Took my GREs last week. Reaching for the stars, hoping one falls within reach.

I might change blog addresses & give up olashorty altogether, due to circumstances that you can probably guess. One of the difficulties of keeping a blog relatively public, I guess.

Due to my falling in love with Yelle...I am now studying French. And it's fucking fun.

Life's getting a little interesting now that I can laugh at myself more and have gotten better at disengaging.

I hope you all enjoyed your holidays & aren't too busy making trite resolutions for 2009. ;)

A CAUSE DES GARCONS.

Orange peels, covering up my heart

It's odd that my lack of a love life is worth addressing nowadays?

Via conversation with my best friend:

Elle (1:04:34 AM): i must confess something...
Moi(1:04:45 AM): go ahead, my child
Elle(1:04:56 AM): i hate seeing you single
Moi (1:05:01 AM): ?
Elle (1:05:01 AM): please find a bf asap

And that is exactly why we are best friends. How I've missed her and her pow wows.

I should be working, but I gave up hours ago. I wish I could trust myself to nap and wake up at 5/6 to continue.

So less stressed now that LSATs are over. Now I just need to start GRE/fellowship stuff...

Love you long time. Hopefully I can get back to blogging soon. At least over break.
Love you long time.

Julienne cuts in my musculature

I realize I haven't posted in an awful long time.

It's been hella busy around these parts.

LSATs tomorrow. I generally have been content with the idea that I'm going to do horribly and can kiss my application to Columbia goodbye. But then I started reading online-- law school numbers/random forums, and I. Have been stressing.

I really need to get into grad school, take the time to actually prepare for LSATs instead of taking MAYBE five practice tests total. I've got fee waivers that last until '10...enough time.

Trying not to be cynical, but. There's just no way I'm even getting close to the ballpark.

Argh.
I can't even explain my disappointment in myself. And I really don't want the consolation-- I'd rather blame myself, for now.
Argharghargh.

Boy in my pocket, wine on my lips

So, I'm gonna let people into another messy thing I do.

If there's someone who claims to be interested in me in ANY fashion, or who displays signs of such, I try to push them onto someone else.

I'm not entirely sure WHY I do it. Part of it is disinterest, or at least wanting to be disinterested, which is almost the same anyway. Another part goes back to some naive notions I have about feelings-- that if I like someone, being presented with another person won't make me change my direction, no matter how many times I've been spurned. Feelings just don't die that easily-- if they do, then they're probably illusory. I sometimes feel things should be the same for other people.

[EDIT: Actually, on reading that...I'm not so sure I agree with that anymore.]

Either way, it's hella passive aggressive and I need to stop doing that. I did it last night with two guys who were getting a little too...close-- helped them hook up, that is. And I guess it's a good thing-- no more hooking up with randoms. There's just...no point. Only making my dissatisfaction that much more tiresome.

I figure with all the travel deals and political entries, I should make a messy entry about myself.

So, I'm walking back home, looking at my shoes, wondering why I'm such a passive- aggressive idiot, talking to myself about how great it is that I hooked up two people and have no one to come home to. And so I go on with my soliloquy to my audience of one, but then I concluded that at least my new "single&fabulous" lifestyle has actually withstood the test. Studying, food, clothes, money, family/friends-- that's all I'm about right now.

Chang chang, getting paid over here.
I'm still drunk, which is why I believe this entry is so...candid.

The BEST thing about today is that I'm possibly going to get a free trip to the dining hall with some of my good friends from less-cool dorms, and that afterwards I'm gonna be brunching/studying with my new gay BFF.

He's fabulous, I'm fabulous, and his current BFF is neglectful. So I'm moving in.

I am so excited!
[Or at least I can pretend. I actually...want to punch walls and scream about what my life's become.]

GRAH.

Anyone want to go to Iceland?

I bet you wish I was joking.

"it's $699 for everything from November till March for double occupancy and 5 days 4 nights instead of 4/3."

So...week vacation in Iceland with me, anyone? And the Iceland's Krona's down so it's pretty much cheap cheap city. Go while supplies last!

http://www.icelandair.us/offers-and-bookings/book-packages/package/item202501/Winter_Wellness_Getaway_in_Iceland_/

Or...Dominican Republic?
http://www.cheapcaribbean.com/core/specials/specialAvailability-cc-3258.html

Or Puerto Rico?
http://www.cheapcaribbean.com/specialAvailability.jsp?pacID=2675

And this is pretty much what I've been doing all day. Intermittently reading my illegally downloaded LSATs prep books and looking at deals on the forums slickdeals.net.

I even bought an mp3 player-- the exact same model that I bought my mom for her birthday last her. 2gig sansa. I forget what I paid for hers, but it was definitely more than mine-- $25. I mean, goodness...I spend more on alcohol. Why not. Refurbished, but the kids on slickdeals gave it a good review, so it should be safe.

It's nice not to have class.

So yeah, any takers on Iceland?
Let a brother know!

And here I thought...

Most of the major neocons loved Sarah Palin.

" The choice of Sarah Palin was also a mistake. I'm talking here about its political effects, not the sideshow psychodrama of feminist rage and elite loathing that had little to do with politics and everything to do with cultural prejudices, resentments and affectations.

Palin was a mistake ("near suicidal," I wrote on the day of her selection) because she completely undercut McCain's principal case against Obama: his inexperience and unreadiness to lead. And her nomination not only intellectually undermined the readiness argument. It changed the election dynamic by shifting attention, for days on end, to Palin's preparedness, fitness and experience -- and away from Obama's. "

Source: The Campaign Autopsy, by Charles Krauthammer

Perhaps I have been overplaying Palin's popularity.
Oh well. Back to "work."

Sweet land, sore stones

If there's one thing being abroad has done for me, it's given me a love for politics.

Which isn't to say I didn't enjoy politics before I left-- I did. But I only started actively reading political material outside of class after I encountered fairly antiAmerican feeling abroad.

If you'll take a break from the Obama-steria for a minute, I'd like to direct you to an article on Medvedev's state of the nation address today.

Medvedev article.

From the article:

"Mr Medvedev blamed the US for the global financial crisis, saying that the rest of the world had been "dragged down with it into recession". He claimed that the era of American domination after the collapse of the Soviet Union was now over.

'The world cannot be ruled from one capital. Those who do not want to understand this will only create new problems for themselves and others,' he said. "

That's what he thinks.
The unipolar moment has not ended. While Russia will attempt to reestablish its sphere of influence and China will continue to grow, jerkily[I'm waiting for the next food scare], Mevedev's forceful language about Washington's ability to rule the world is unconvincing.

This empire's still got time left. And I think people are gonna be surprised by how much more effective Obama's hand at it is going to be. Dominance with a smiling face, under the guise of US-directed multilaterism.

Curiously, Medvedev didn't mention Obama's victory not once. It partly seems passive agressive, partly imprudent. But I also remember a statement from Medvedev about his dissatisfaction with both candidates, so I suppose we shouldn't be surprised that he failed to mention Obama as the POTUS elect.

I cannot wait to see Obama's appointees.

II.

I think one of the most major barriers to education is knowing where to get it.
Or at least for me.

No matter how much I read DailyKos, MyDD, Powerline, and so forth, I could never catch up to the know-it-alls in my political science classes.

I think I'm getting closer.

Step one: Pundits aren't that important.
They aren't. The aforementioned may be popular, but bloggers have yet to become as influential as guys like William Kristol, Paul Krugman, etc.

Step two: Find stuff?

I'll now share what I'm trying to read.

The Economist.
Bloomberg.
The Weekly Standard.
The Council on Foreign Affairs.

As well as other things like The Drudge Report, The Telegraph, NY Times, Wall Street Journal, and the Washington Post.

Part III?
I kind of want to be a politician, after hearing about some of the voter fraud going on at home.
We'll see.

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And these are my thoughts on a post-Obama victory day.
I'm at work.
I have a midterm in that blasted anime class today. Hopefully I do well enough to counteract my bad grade on the paper.

Later.